Yesterday I received my Windows 7 upgrade. Pretty fast considering It wasn't released from Amazon until Oct.22nd. I did a pre release purchase from Amazon. I purchased it in June for something like 50.00. Everything went rather smooth. It took me about 2 1/2 hours from beginning to end. Now if I had read everything correctly, I should be able to do it on two more computers with the issued product key. I am about to find out here real soon. One more installation on the desk top, then one more over at Bills. Now if asked if I would pay 150.00 for it, I would say no. It's definitely faster, which is probably the best thing about it. But the cosmetics are close to the same. Windows should focus more on the stability of there OS, than there fu fu cosmetics and gingerbread BS. However it is still better than Vista. So I have two computers with Windows 7, or I should say one, and hopefully two. One on XP. Then I have my Macbook Pro. Which is without a doubt in a league of it's own.
I have decided to take Tuesday and Wednesday off from work. It will be raining quite heavily. We are expected to get four to six inches in the mountains. A good time to not be at work. Business is slow already, so it will come to a stand still when the rain arrives. The last four days at work however have been insanely busy. We have been shorthanded, so that makes it even worse. I am getting too old to be running around loading lumber and building materials for our customers. But you do what you have to do. I might head out to our neighboring city for a one on one Mac class. They are really helpful at the Apple store in educating people like me. Even though they might think you are an idiot, they don't show it. They are very profesional and helpful. I have seen a lot of people older than me taking these classes. So That makes me feel better. So this coming Sunday are my boys birthday. Fifteen years old. Where does the time go? I asked them what they would like for there birthday, and they replied "I don't know." It's not easy buying for fifteen year olds. We are going to take them to the motorcycle races though. They said they would like that. I am sure they would like dirt bikes for their birthday, but times two? I am afraid that is not in the cards this year. Money is really tight right now. So on the lighter side, things are doing pretty good. My attitude towards things in general have gotten better. Perhaps because I will be taking a couple of days off of work. I think I am getting burned out of this business. Twenty nine years is a long time to be in one place.
I feel as though I am going through a high level of stress right now. I am at my wits end. The wife and I have been arguing over such trivial bullshit. My business partner, who is also my oldest brother, I swear has gone over the deep end. He fucking flips out over the smallest thing. I realize that business has been really bad this year. However this is not my fault. He can be a real asshole. I really do not know how I have survived being in this business with him for the past 29 years. Between my home life with my wife flipping out and my brother I have reached my threshold. I am leaving here this morning before we even open up for business. I do not even want to talk to anyone. This morning before I left for work I told my wife that I am going away for a few days early next week. I would leave right this instant if we were not so short handed this weekend. I told her that I was going to Duffy's, A rehab place in Calistoga for a sobriety weekend. That would get me off the hook. I have been 520 days without a drink. However what I really wanted to do was go to Tahoe for a couple of nights. However I might just give in and drink. I am very vulnerable right now. I really don't know if this would be like cheating or what. Telling her that I was going to one place, then really going somewhere else. I just want to get in my vehicle and leave. I feel as though I am justified. I have taken enough of people's shit and need to get out. I feel on the verge of a breakdown.
It seems like the only time I find to post is when I am at work at some ungodly time of day. Now here it is at 3am on a Monday. There was really no need to even get here this early. I just couldn't sleep. So I got up at 2am and just decided to come to work. My office is nice and warm right now, with fall being here it is a brisk thirty three degrees outside. I had the weekend off and pretty much just stayed at home and stacked firewood and read. Right now I am reading The search for the Green River killer. A really good book. Long but good. There is no skimming over this book. Every word and detail is absorbed. So I will probably pick it up and read a few chapters while I am here. I enjoy this time of year. Summer is over and we are not yet into those stressful holidays. Money is going to be tight this year, with the way the economy is and all. Our business has had the worse year in 30 years. Contractor sales are down by 46%. It is going to be a long winter. We are already starting to cut back on our help. I have had to fire two employees in the past week and a half for reasons I would rather not say. They had been forewarned, but didn't take it seriously enough. Well anyway, life is still good, and everyone is healthy, so in the bigger picture of things, that's all that matters.
Well Bill is now home after five weeks of rehabilitation. We lined up a house for him and got him situated. He didn't want to stay with us. Understandably so. I am in the process of cleaning up his last house that he and a friend were renting.(what a pig sty.) It was one big party house. His old roommate just bailed out on us and left garbage everywhere. So there goes their deposit of 1200.00. I really don't give a rats ass about that. However I have made two dump runs with our gravel truck from work. I am disgusted about this whole situation. Having to clean up after two grown men. After today I am done with it. So on the lighter side, my two boys started high school on the 19th. I was the single parent again(my wife down at Bills rehab.) taking my boys to freshman orientation the day before. We had a good time however and they are enjoying high school. I am truly happy for them. It is an exciting time for them in their life. These past two months have played havoc on my wife and my family as a whole. I am tired of this whole ordeal. It seems that any spare time that we have is being consumed by Bill and his situation. I have grown closer to my two youngest sons throughout this mess. We have pretty much been a team of three. Single parenting has not been easy. I know this sounds selfish but I would like to pack my duffel and take off for a couple of days just to be by myself.
Mr Wilde in high school. He taught Government/World problems. He was great. He made learning enjoyable. That was a long time ago.
This morning my wife drops off the kids for their eighth grade graduation trip for three days and two nights. Immediately after that we load up the car and take off for June Lake on the eastern side of the sierras. Its about a two and a half hour drive. The area sits at about eight thousand foot elevation. Very beautiful area. I booked a room at the Double Eagle resort for one night only. Then its back to work. We are both looking forward to this trip.
Well its been a while since ive posted. Im sitting here at work on a Sunday morning waiting to open up the store. I work every other weekend, and this so happens to be my weekend to work. My wife and kids are at the cabin by the lake until Monday evening. So I have the entire house to myself. And I am thoroughly enjoying it. Just four more years until I retire.(God willing.) I am so tired of this area that Id like to move to possibly Oregon. Im in a sort of rut in my life right now. Ive been exercising quite a bit lately. I cycle 10 miles at least every other day and have lost 35 lbs. so far. I figure another 20 lbs to go. I have been in the same business for 29 years now and would like to make a change. I just dont know what. I need some excitement in my life, but dont know what. I need to fulfill that certain emptiness of not having done something that would make me feel really good.
Several days without a problem.